Ive had my own issues. Lifelong issues. Written from experience. I hope this helps you.
Video Version HERE
In the
Wallows
I sit
Slouching really
In the tepid gloom
Of a season in
decline
An unflinching force
Towards winter
A lowly lit room
A pathetic
metaphor
For my fatalistic
mood
Defeated, it feels
By the everyday
The alarm chime,
the routine to rise
The traffic, the
commitment
The morons whose
mistakes
Aim to trip us up
Our constant guard
exhausting
The arsehole whose
harsh words
And selfish
actions
Taint our
worldview
And make it all
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| marina by m.tau - deviant art |
And now I’m aware
That I’ve gone
from
I to Us
As though I’m
speaking for others
Universal
practices or not
Whereas
It’s just me here.
The battle is very
personal
And right now
I feel I’ve lost.
That’s the true
evil of depression
That the current
mood
Stands for all
time
The pervading,
cloying doom
Eternal.
Whereas in half a
day
I may have clawed
my way back
As we often do
As those
aforementioned tediums
Require that we
must
As money is still
required
To survive.
So I’ll rise once
more
No doubt
But for now
I’m home
In the wallows.
(I don't have any answers. All I'm saying is that sometimes it's okay to feel bad, if we are able to remind ourselves that these awful feelings will pass. Just hang on).
At the end of the series I'll be compiling this poem and 9 others into a pdf for download,
called All Empires Crumble. All are from 2019.
Previous Mental Health Month entries
You definitely get across how futile you think life is. I reckon a lot of people, "US", feel that way. I am reminded why a lot of people keep fanatically busy, so they don't have to stop and think what is the point of it all. As Socrates says An unexamined life is not worth living. Lately I have been too busy to stop and think about my life - preferring I think to project my fears on how society is going as a whole than delve into my situation.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reply and the quote. It's a good one. Too much of it is not good for mental health. Over analysis. Not just of self but everything. Perhaps your way is best.
ReplyDeleteI do believe it has contributed to the writing over the years, though it certainly has come at a cost, especially now that I'm getting older, I can feel the strain.
Thanks for swinging by and all your thoughts and ideas over a long time now.